Because I'm in love.

No one knows more about being a woman than she does:

"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding."

Angela Anaїs Juana Antolina Rosa Edelmira Nin y Culmell

I want my man to hold the door for me, seat me at the dining table, guide me down the stairs, glare at any man who looks at me, arrest me with his smile, arouse me with his eyes, inspire me with his talents, surprise me with gifts, make me laugh heartily.

And he does.