Do you know me?

I am selfish, insensitive, irrational, stupid and weak.

I hurt the people I love, have terrible mood swings, vent my anger carelessly, become oblivious to kindness and concern, make use of others, tell harmful lies, break hearts, do things detrimental to my health, make wrong decisions and ruin my own life.

But I am in pain, cry often, lost my mind, have to wake up, need to breathe, want to die.

All because I need to love.

Help. I don't know me anymore.